Hello people! Time check: 02:03am. It's Chinese New Year's eve today, but since CNY is so early this year, plus with all the stress from everywhere, I'm not really in a festive mood. But I'm still happy!!!!!!!! Because it's a time for angbaos and holidays! Ever since school started, I've never felt so relaxed before. This CNY break is definitely a need man.

There's no purpose in this entry actually. I just saw my blogger app on my phone and I was like "hey, blogging sounds good now." even though I'm dead beat after coming back from town just now! Oh well well teenagers are weird people, no doubt.

Meh. Oh yeah, the week before this (16/01 - 20/01) was a really hectic week. The week passed so slow with so many things to do. Things I'm suppose to complete started to pile up like nobody's business. With all the competition coming in, I think I really need better time management skills. D:

Come on people, 说一声＂加油＂人人都需要!!!!!!! I need my 加油 too. D:

K I shall end here. I'm a emo gal going to bed now, bye x.

HAVE A GREAT LUNAR NEW YEAR GUYS XX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D

Greetings! Firstly, I want to thank everyone for their lovely birthday wishes yesterday, especially my dear netball girls. They were so sweet! They went through all the troubles planning for my awesome birthday surprise, I'm super touched! :D I love you girls okay!

By the way, we were at Sembawang Shopping Centre's Popular yesterday, after the surprise, to get some materials for the netball notice board. Yeah, so the main point is, I saw this diary. And I totally love it! It was thick, soft and vintage-looking so I was thinking if I should buy it. Then, I saw this purple notebook with a word "Happiness" printed on it. I love it too! So I was deciding between the black vintage looking one or the purple "Happiness" notebook. (FYI the black book costs $14.10 and the purple one costs $4.90)

Then, I kept pestering my friends because I can't decide. I am an indecisive girl....... Ha! Yup, so Denise have me an analogy. She said, "Get the second one. Because if you really love the first one, you wouldn't even like the second one. Just like in a relationship." After hearing that, I was like, hey that make some sense. But you know what? After all, I didn't choose both. Just like how most triangle relationship ends!

What happened yesterday triggered me to blog this entry. Imagine runs wild. Imagination is a scary, yet awesome thing. Analogies allow me to put myself in others' shoes, and see things from their perspective. I understood what I thought I will never understand. And I'm thankful for that.

Once upon a time, a guy held on to his past, just like how the girl who had a crush on him held on to him. Although they both knew that in both situation, both him and his past, both the girl and the guy, had 99.9% chance that they won't work out, it was the 00.1% hope that kept them moving and holding on. Just as the girl realises that they won't work out, the guy realizes that they won't work out as well. By then, they realized that they are always one step apart...

Sometimes, you are exactly in that kind of situation, but you didn't know. Let your imagination run, let your heart out to understand. Then eventually, you will. I understood, and you will too. :)

Stay positive, people. It helps. Bye x!

This came a little early because I doubt I'll have any time to post tomorrow, so yeah, this is the annual new year post. This year flew like

Just like that, I'm going to be a sec 4 already, facing the first hurdle of my life-- 'O' LEVELS!!!!
Well amazing enough, I'm quite looking forward to it. Am I the only crazy one? Anticipation caught the better of me!

For this year, this will not be a picture filled post like last year's (click here) because apparently, I'm lazy + my mom wants me to sleep at 12:30am, and time check: it's 12:06am already! Let's see how long I'll take to complete this hehehehehe.

To conclude my year, I have only one word to say. It was

Way too awesome, although there were shitty times. The way people came and went changed my life. To people who came and to people who stayed, it's really a pleasure having you coming and staying in my life. You guys had made my 2011 a really great one, and I hope in the coming years, you guys will play a part in making them great too! To people who left, may life be a dick to you. Ooops, okay, fine. I'll be a nice girl. I hope life will be great for you too (although not as good as having me in your life), and I hope you guys will find another friend like me soon. :P

To people I love, I hope I made a difference to your 2011 too because you guys really made a big big difference to mine. Without you guys, ...... okay I'll skip all those mushy lines because I really don't have time! Oh no it's 12:16am already.

May the year ahead be a really pleasant one for all of us here, also those people I hate oops sorry I mean those I don't really love much.

Have you guys got your new year resolution ready? I had mine already!

1. Be constant for O's!
2. O's <15
3. No relationship
4. North Zone Top 8!
5. No Hate, just Love.
6. Study for at least an hour everyday

That's about all, so far. More coming in!!!!!!!!

Alright time check: 12:20am. Le me birthday in 5 days! :P OK BAI.

These few days has been quite a tough one for me. Just when I thought my days were becoming better, and just when I thought good times were finally here, life decides to fuck everything up again. Or is it just... me? I've been asking myself this one question lately, what have I done wrong? 

Is it really me? Is it really my fault? I was wrong? Really? All these questions got my confidence really low. Everything I do, every step I take, just when something goes wrong, it's my bad.

And lately, I'm losing all my patience. I get frustrated easily. I get angry and hot tempered often. I am impatient, always giving people a hard time just because I don't feel good. I feel so selfish. I am unhappy, and I have to make people's life difficult too. I blame people for dampening my mood, I blame people for spoiling my day, when I'm obviously asking for it. I comment and get unhappy at everything. Sometimes, I really think I'm a little too hard to please. I get upset more easily now. I think my heart just died.

I should come to my senses soon. okay this is a stupid sentence. I already did. Hm, it's great to always realise your mistake(s), no? From today onwards, I'm gonna (try to) be a nice girl and spread Love. XOXO

It's funny when you find yourself looking from the outside. I'm standing here but all I want is to be over there. Why did I let myself believe that miracles could happen? Now I have to pretend that I don't really care...
I thought you were my fairytale, my dream when I'm not sleeping, a wish upon a star that's comin' true. But everybody else could tell that I confused my feelings with the truth, when there was me and you.
I swore I knew the melody, that I heard you singing. And when you smiled you made me feel that I could sing along. But then you went and changed the words, now my heart is empty. I'm only left with used-to-be's and once upon a song... Now I know you're not a fairytale, and dreams were meant for sleeping. And wishes upon a star just don't come true. Now, even I can tell that I confused my feelings with the truth because I liked the view when there was me and you. I can't believe that I could be so blind, it's like you were floating while I was falling and I didn't mind... because I liked the view, i thought you felt it too, when there was me and you.

#nowplaying When there was me and you__High School Musical Vanessa Hudgens 

Silence is something scary. Silence is something I don't like. But sometimes, silence allow people to think. Silence mean a lot of things. You can look someone in the eyes silently and that person know you're trying to say "I love you." You can look at someone silently, without them knowing, because you miss them and you're hoping they're doing the same too. Sometimes, silence means peace. Sometimes, there's silence because you're at loss of words, or maybe you don't wanna say a thing. Sometimes, silence comes with pain. People often neglect people who are around, silently. People often don't realise, those silent stares/glances/looks... are filled with pain.

Tonight, I lie awake and scream in zero gravity. And it's starting to weigh down on me.
Let's abort this mission now, can I please come down?
So tonight I am calling all astronauts, calling lonely people that the world forgot.
If you hear my voice, come pick me up. Because you're all I've got.

Tonight I'm feeling like an astronaut, sending SOS from this tiny box.
And I lost all signal when I lifted up... Now I'm stuck out here and the world forgot.

#nowplaying Astronaut by Simple Plan.